Not

You kitten! I know it's you. What are you after? Do you want me to tell you I miss you? That's stupid... you know I do. Do you want me to tell you that my social life is horrible? I suppose I could tell you that, but it's not the case. I've met a bunch of perfectly nice women, but they're just not...

They're just... not.

I do want to feel that stupid hyperkinetic energy again. I do want to feel like I want to be what someone else wants (though it would help if I understood it more clearly up front) in an intense, happy way.

At least tell me why you're reading so much.