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DeafMay 03, 2005 - 5:23 p.m.
Yes, I've been gone. My hearing never came back. Neither did Melody. I have a broken eardrum that's healing, and I have a broken heart that's healing. So, here it is, May, and I am spending a lot of time thinking of the good things about her. I loved the way she felt against me. I loved the way she'd look at herself in the mirror when she got dressed. I loved how she could turn on a sort of beacon when she was in the right group of people and just be dazzling. I loved how she looked when she carried cats around. I loved it when she was goofy, or cuddly, or sexy. I loved learning things about her and with her. She once said I'd said lots of horrible lies about her. If those were lies, then I guess the things above are lies, too. I know they're not. I'm just trying to remember the very best things and carry those forward... try to find them in someone else. Someone who lacks the difficult things. I have no idea how to start, and it's been far too easy to just want to be with her rather than do the hard work of finding someone I love just as much who hasn't got the difficult parts I could never work past. The single most important part of being with someone is, they have to want to be with you.
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